New Chapter

There is a time when you start a new chapter of your life that you can feel yourself changing. Whether it’s positive or negative is completely your choice. You write your own life story. We all come across bumps, forks, and dead ends in the road and it is your choice on which direction you will go next.

For me, my new chapter began with instant unconditional love. Without even knowing it, two little angels entered my life and reminded me of the importance of relationships. When a part of your life ends, you tend to step away from anything derived from feeling. You will strive to surround yourself with something constant: your career, car, money or even drugs. Relationships and feelings will be pushed to the side for fear of another loss. In reality, nothing is a constant. One day your career will be over, your car could break down, and a daily focus on money or drugs could lead to the end of a novel I’d rather not read.

The recipe of a life altering relationship calls for trust, work, time and the strength to be yourself. All of which I was not ready for until you.

The lack of trust in someone else stems from both the dishonesty of past relationships and insecurities of your imperfections. I would think it’s impossible to even begin to trust someone when the sting of deception still feels very real. I would think it’s impossible to even begin to find strength in yourself when you feel you’re drowning in imperfections the moment you look in the mirror. Then you came along and simply told me I think too much.

From the start, you have communicated what you wanted. No games, no deception, no uncertainty. It has inspired me to be completely honest with my insecurities. I can not find the words to describe the feeling of being real and hearing someone say they adore it all. You make me feel like a work of art. You celebrate my imperfections and emphasize that I am rare because of them.

No time is the perfect excuse for a workaholic avoiding a relationship. I can see now that this excuse can potentially make you miss out on a connection that can positively change you. Because there you were, encouraging me to take my time and make decisions based on my happiness.

You have reminded me of the simple truth that the way you spend your time is a choice. Therefore, time is a precious gift that ought to be given to those that assist you in becoming the person you strive to be. Although, a relationship can not survive on a one way street for you must savor their time as much as they cherish yours.

I’m beginning to feel myself changing in this new chapter of my life. Making the decision to strengthen my relationships is completely my choice. Nurturing the new relationships and strengthening the old are the key ingredients in the direction I am choosing to go.

I am going to write my own life story and the underlying theme is love.

For love is the only constant in this life and the next.

For You

For you:

Many tears, time, and self discovery have brought me to this moment.

A loss can be the most difficult misfortune to write about. It takes time to properly formulate the ideal words to uncover the truth about your unrelenting denial. I have ultimately gathered the strength to admit that I have loved and I have lost.

The glimmer of city lights takes me back a few years to a time when you loved me. Maybe in another life, distance and space would not separate our hearts and minds from happiness. Sadly, we were not so fortunate.

I have recently found myself wondering if our two worlds could yet again combine. I crave those moments our eyes meet and I feel as though I’m the one. The one to bring you strength in times of trial, bring you joy in times of sorrow, and help you feel when you strive to be numb.


I begin to feel dizzy when I can’t decipher the distance between a memory and the present. As your eyes shift away, I can decode your movement as passion for the newness in your life. I have come to accept that it is inevitable for time to change the present. With that said, seeing you in your latest element has provided the platform for this prolonged goodbye.

Our love will be endless for you have changed me for the better. However, I have spent my days wishing to be the strength that you need. I can’t stand at the bottom of your cliff with my sore arms outstretched towards you forever. The most difficult part is realizing that you don’t even need me to.


Like the trends of last season, I have been replaced. I’ve caught myself standing in an empty room holding on to something that has left my grasp long ago. Even when I picked myself up and carried on, I felt that you needed me. No one had our bond. No one had our understanding of one another. No one had our love. It is for this reason that I can not settle with merely a friendship. We will always have more. I can’t continue waiting for a time when your heart is broken and you realize I am the only soul that can put the pieces back together.

For the first time, I am ready to let you go. I am ready to wish you happiness without me.

I can no longer yearn to save someone that doesn’t need the saving. I can only wish you a life filled with the love that you have bestowed upon me. I hope that one day your sleepless nights are silenced with answers to your thoughts. I hope you let more people in to allow them to see the incredible gifts you have to share. I hope you know that you are enough. I hope you know that you are capable of doing more than you can imagine. I hope you know that you are inspirational. I hope you know that your family is proud of you. I hope you know someone believes in all you do. I hope you wont be afraid to feel, whether its love or its pain. I hope you know that you have the power to change someone’s life.

Thank you for changing mine.

Through time and distance, the city lights are a constant reminder that you once loved me. All I ask today is that you gracefully exit my dreams and allow me to continue this journey without you. I have loved and I have lost. Both have empowered me to only love harder.

True Colors

From the moment I met him, I knew he was different. His personality and humor were as colorful and unique as a rhyme scheme in a Shakespearean sonnet. I was impressed with his ability to speak about romance even as a victim of such a heavy heartache. Looking back, I didn’t take the time to decipher the poems that so gracefully fell from his lips. Like any phenomenal poet, a deceiver chooses their words wisely and finds hidden pleasure in twisting the meanings.
It is almost poetic, the way it ended. Shakespeare couldn’t have written it better himself. It wasn’t until I stood there watching his own words go up in flames that I realized how deceiving he truly was. It wasn’t like a polyester blouse posing as a 100% silk masterpiece. In all honesty, I know these men and I feel that I can spot one from a mile away. It was more like purchasing a fabulous 100% cashmere wrap and later discovering the 15% blend label proving several months of a wasted investment. Don’t get me wrong, some people are content with a cheap blend of narcissism and insecurities, but I am not one of them. I know I deserve more.

In order for a relationship to work, both people must be on the same level of maturity. This is why a number of times a gap in age will prevent a healthy relationship from forming. Needless to say, I have always questioned why people say that age is just a number. I feel that I can finally understand this widely accepted statement through recent events. Maturity is not always reflected in the number of years someone has walked this earth. Maturity is shown through patience, honesty and confidence. Because of his lack of these qualities, it was foolish for me to expect him to be a man. It is now obvious to me; he is still that 20 year old boy he mocked for his dishonesty with women.

It makes me cringe to think that I was willing and ready to play a positive role in picking up his baggage and helping him move on. Not only did he have no intentions of packing up his old wardrobe and leaving it behind, he continued to shop online for new additions to his long list of lies. On the other hand, I pity him for being so driven by his own insecurities that he felt the need to fill himself with the attention of other people. It is obvious to me, he is afraid of being alone. It can be compared to the desperate woman that does not go shopping to buy; she shops only to get the undivided attention of the salesperson. For this reason, I am not angry or distraught by his decisions and deception. I sympathize for his self-doubting nature.

The difference between you and I is that I will not deceive you by misleading or making you wonder. With that, I should let you know that my respect for you is off the table and so is my heart. I now see your true colors and they are duller than I had expected. Don’t call me up, because you should know I won’t be there.

Right Place, Wrong Time

It isn’t every day that you stumble upon a shiny piece of mail that completely turns your day around. You can’t believe your eyes when you grasp the 40 % off coupon sent from your favorite shopping destination. You give yourself just enough time to slip on your newest gladiator sandals before you are out the door, credit card in hand. As you’re swerving through traffic, you can picture yourself in the gorgeous silk jumper you’ve mentally incorporated into your wardrobe weeks ago. You can almost feel the chain feather necklace you have been dreaming about since the first time you laid eyes on it. You can already sense the future looks from jealous girls wishing they had a pair of 70s inspired wooden platform shoes. You can not believe that all of these pieces and more are now reachable.

Excited is an understatement in how you feel as you step into the store. It isn’t long before you are in the fitting room trying on the entire Spring collection. As you look at your reflection, you ultimately begin to fall in love with each piece for a different and specific reason. You love the way the dress makes you feel like a beautiful woman, but the studded waist belt isn’t afraid to embrace your character and your curves. You love that the embellished ballet flats make you feel comfortable but the red patent stilettos keep you on edge. You love that the distressed jeans are very forgiving but the black blazer has an appealing masculine structure. The printed pleated skirt is flirtatious and silly while the cashmere wrap brings out a softer side. Needless to say, each piece complimented you in a different and new way than ever before. For the first time in a long time, you felt like things were going your way.

You can’t help but smile when you can hardly see the sales associate past your pile of yes’s on the counter. The associate then reads your grand total equaling about five months worth of car payments and you joyfully hand over your insider coupon. With a blank stare, the sales associate explains that the coupon is not good for another three weeks.

You feel your heart stop and the world goes dark. Instantly your emotions have changed from joyful and lucky to sad, confused and shut down. One million questions enter your mind as you process this new information. How could you have been so careless to not look at the start date? Why did you have to jump in the car so quickly? After a few moments, you realize the sales associate is still very present in the situation. You find yourself holding back tears of disappointment by remaining calm and collected. You find it important to keep her unaware of your financial and emotional setback. At this instant, you realize you’re in a case of bad timing.

In this kind of moment, you ultimately have four choices. You can run out crying and empty handed, vowing never to shop in that store again. You could buy all the pieces at once and risk payment of your other expenses. You could put all of the items on hold and hope that they would still be at the store in three weeks time or you could purchase what you are able to afford and cherish each and every moment you get to wear them.

It isn’t every day you stumble upon someone that can completely turn your day around. Excited is an understatement when you step into a new relationship with high hopes and new emotions. It isn’t long before you get to know the various aspects of this person. Just like the many pieces you try on in the fitting room, you are ultimately seeing how this person’s qualities fit on you. At some point you will find someone that compliments you in a different and new way than ever before and you will begin to feel that things are finally going your way.

Through getting to know each other, you may begin to recognize you’re at very different places on your timeline. Unfortunately your emotions begin to change from joyful and excited to disappointed and shut down. If you’re anything like me, your walls are now intact in an attempt to remain calm and collected. At this instant, you now realize you are in a case of bad timing.

Again, you are given the four choices when dealt this hand. You could run out crying and empty handed, vowing never to love again. You could put your whole heart on the table even when the odds of winning are against you. You could cut the person out of your life in hopes that they will still be there at the right time or you can accept your chances and cherish the few moments you have that continue to take your breath away.

Remember that time is very precious, but so is your heart.

Neither of which should be wasted on something less than absolutely spectacular.

Confidence is a Girl's Best Friend

With her signature platinum blonde hair and scarlet red lips, Marilyn Monroe embodies the term beautiful. Women today continue to place pictures of this bombshell in their bedrooms and strive to one day achieve her loveliness. Although diamonds, shoes and Chanel No.5 were her best known accessories, nothing could compare to her unwavering self-confidence. Marilyn symbolized a woman that did not rely on anyone to make her feel beautiful. During a time when thin was an expression of beauty, Marilyn walked all over this expectation with her curvy figure and ruby crystal Ferragamo pumps. Not only did she embrace what made her different, she inspired the world to see that sexiness does not come primarily from a bottle or the opinions of others. Like a great pair of stilettos, Marilyn Monroe illustrated that with confidence every woman can reach fabulous new heights in beauty, style, and love.

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." Marilyn Monroe

The choices I have made in my education, career path and many friendships have led me down a road of interactions with countless women that lack confidence. Luckily I was blessed with a father that never ceased to tell me I was beautiful and continued to show me I can achieve anything I set my mind to. Inevitably, I grew into a woman driven by my father’s words and knowing what I deserve to feel in this critical world.

With that said, I feel for the woman that can’t purchase a pair of jeans without her boyfriend’s approval no matter how fabulous they make her feel. It pains me to see the 13 year old girl stop in for Victoria’s Secrets newest padded pushup to imitate Kim Kardashian’s busty physique. I weep for the woman that continues to stay with an abusive partner because she can’t bring herself to see that she is worthy of a man that treats her right. I’m disappointed in the woman who truly believes that sex is how you find your way into a man’s heart. Last but not least, my heart goes out to the woman that permits self doubt to cover up her gorgeous features and keep her from truly finding love.

Marilyn Monroe craved romance and love like any woman naturally does. It is easy to see that like all of us, her heart was scarred by lies and unnecessary hurt. Even so, she was a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. It’s like when you’re rocking your favorite strappy stilettos and the heel breaks without warning. All at once you feel the world closing in as you picture your life and wardrobe without your beloved kicks. Little do you know, your newest addition of Franco Sarto caged pumps will not only replace but outshine your failed piece.

"People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." Marilyn Monroe

Ultimately, a scarred heart must not negatively shape your confidence in finding a new addition to your life. Everything happens for a reason and someone will not only replace but outshine the person that failed you. You deserve someone that yearns to build your confidence because it will only give you a stronger foundation to return the favor. They will strive to make you feel sexy even as you roll out of bed with no makeup and hair resembling a bird’s nest. They will push you to move forward with your career because they believe in your talent. They will keenly listen to stories of your nerdy childhood in hopes of understanding your journey in becoming the person you are today. They will accept that your concept of time is permanently skewed no matter how many times you promise you won’t be late. They will answer a call at 2 am to keep you from driving after you’ve had one too many margaritas with your girlfriends. They will continue to surprise you with the simple fact that genuine people can still be found in this world.

A shiny replacement is not typically found on any ordinary wall display or rack. You may find yourself waiting quite some time for that limited edition piece. Nonetheless, confidence will only encourage you to wait for the best because you’re worth it. Confidence is a girl’s best friend.

Beautiful Match

From the moment you first see your mother apply her favorite lipstick and mascara, you can’t help but dream that one day your reflection will be just as beautiful as hers. The silver lipstick case and glistening handheld mirror she used have been burned in my mind as long as I can remember. It seems like yesterday I crept over to my mother’s bathroom counter to examine the many shades of liner and eye shadows she applied daily making her look as beautiful as the princesses in my story books. Needless to say, it did not take long for me to swipe the rosy shade of Revlon lipstick and pose for imaginary cameras capturing my princess moment. Looking back, I’m sure my reflection resembled more of a clown than the princess I had envisioned, but I felt beautiful.



In order to feel beautiful, women go through life in search of their perfect match. Our very first purchase of strawberry banana LipSmackers is the beginning to our lifelong search for the ideal lipstick, concealer, powder, bronzer and mascara. Our needs in cosmetics follow the transitions we make throughout our lives. Sally Hansen provided the basics needed for that 14 year old girl trying to get the attention of the cute boy in math class. Covergirl provided waterproof mascara that ceased to run when your first boyfriend broke your heart in middle school. In high school, MAC saved your life by hiding any embarrassing imperfections you did not want your prom date to notice. Chanel and Dior lip gloss made you feel chic and important even as a starving college student. As we mature and grow, it is important to discover what makes us feel as beautiful as that little girl posing for imaginary cameras. Your ideal cosmetics are not meant to cover up your imperfections but enhance your natural beauty. They keep you looking real, feeling confident and embracing who you are.

Our needs in cosmetics and the perfect man follow the transitions we make throughout our lives. When we’re young, our needs are filled with the cute boy in math class or the quarterback of the football team. Popularity, good looks, and a bad boy persona were among your top three priorities when choosing your ideal match. It isn’t until we mature and experience heartbreak that we realize certain shades of lipstick don’t match your skin tone no matter how many times you try it on. If you want someone that makes you feel beautiful, your ideal match doesn’t have to do with brand names or price. Surround yourself with people that will not attempt to cover up your imperfections. The perfect match will only strive to enhance your natural beauty and help to make you a better person each and every day. They will provide an open mind and encourage you to be real and love your reflection.



Find yourself a waterproof liner that wont budge when you’re too scared to open up and an eyeshadow that doesn’t continually make your eyes water. Invest in a foundation and powder that only improves your life and a blush that comes with a compliment. You must only purchase a brush set that is reliable and in for the long run. Choose a moisturizer with sunscreen that makes it a priority to keep you safe and a lip liner that helps you stay on your path. Stay away from mascaras that run too easily and be sure to pick a lipstick that inspires you to smile.

The perfect match will not only make you feel beautiful, it will motivate you to love again.